Eek. In less than 24 hours, I’m leaving for Catalyst Con and I feel so woefully unprepared! I’ve never attended a sex-related conference before, and I’m beyond excited. I’ve watched 3 ccons pass me by and I promised myself that in 2015 I would make it to one. And here we are.
I hoped by this point I would have healed from this really long and super life-sucking depression I’ve endured over the past year. Well, I’ve at least learned to manage it. I had hoped I would be more confident in who I was as a writer, but I’ve barely been able to keep up writing. Depression practically makes me a mute; I want to just be free with my words as I once was!
I am hoping that this con can help me make connections and get inspired on starting this kink consultant idea I’ve had floating in my head for a while.
What I’m most looking forward to is meeting with ‘ma peeps.’ You know, that group of people who you just fall into and realize I BELONG HERE. That’s the sex positive education community for me.
I am not (nor will I ever be) the most eloquent person. In fact, I’m usually so shy that once I get past my name, I do a lot of smiling, nodding, and laughing in group. I’m so incredibly socially awkward, the concept of meeting a ton (ie, more than 3) new people makes me a bundle of nerves.
So, if you’re reading this because I’ve handed you my business card (god I hope they show up before I leave tomorrow!) or you’ve seen my badge and looked me up or you saw a tweet of mine and landed here – chances are I’d love to meet you and say hi, just understand I may be too shy, too nervous, or too intimidated by your star-power (seriously, some of you are my heroes) that my conversation skills will be almost non-existent.
I still like you. I may just look like I’m ready to run away and hide in my room. I may do that as needed.