Q. Why haven’t you posted any hot nude photos of yourself? We know you’re gorgeous and we want to see!
Interesting question. Aside from my twitter profile picture, the only photos of me on this blog are, so far, my feet and a flash of my boobs. Despite posting about my change in self-confidence and being in a sex-positive relationship, I’ll admit to be unhappy with the state of my body right now… to the point that I don’t like showing it to anyone but the BF.
|BF’s reaction is kinda like this. Or it feels like this to me.|
The BF’s reaction to my body is undeniable attraction. He can’t keep his hands off me, and when I flash my body or dress scantily around the house, he loves it. I can’t get enough of his reactions to me. But does that mean I’m comfortable when I look in the mirror? No, not really. I can see beauty and even better, the potential of beauty. I take a picture I think will be sexy — but I see a lot of flaws.
I told the BF about this question, and he wanted to also know my reason. Why hadn’t I? As far as he’s concerned, I can post everything except my face. He thinks I’m beautiful and sexy, what’s not to like? When I told him it was because I didn’t like the flaws, he didn’t know what I meant. What flaws? Well, the fat and the stretch marks I have. He said, “Honey, those aren’t flaws… those are a beautiful parts of you.”
Well, until I can see that or I’m more comfortable showing more parts of me, they will remain a mystery I think. I do like to play with the camera… a few weeks ago when I took the bathtub photos of my feet I took a bunch more of my body for the BF – lots of pussy shots just for him. The other night I took out the camera while he and I were both in lingerie and we got some terrific shots of my boobs.
My boobs are about the only part of me I’m comfortable sharing right now – cause they are fantastic. Perhaps my pussy will one day make an appearance… I’m not sure why I’m stuck on this idea that it has to be “perfect” to post. In the pictures I have its unshaven about three weeks after my last Brazilian wax, so its kind of hairy. I’m not sure why it has to be either full bush or bare for me to think its share-worthy. Truth is, I love my pussy regardless of the amount of hair. And so does the BF. I’ll have to think about that.
But for now, a boob pic for you to enjoy:
|Yes, my boobs are filling the cup area and spilling out the top.|
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